Dearest Love,

You have and will always be my exception.  when we first started talking i never realized or thought we would have ended up together.  it was cool to talk with you, text, confide in you, listen to you…i loved learning about your life…i loved how open you were with me.  i enjoyed our talks, the laughter…just having fun with you.  But after a 1 year together our time ended.  i take a lot of responsibility for it but i have also accepted that our situtation contributed to my actions and feelings.  nonetheless our relationship is over.  since then, we’ve decided to be friends which i truly wanted and i felt you did as well…

Now since a few months have past…i think we both have different definitions of friendship.  yours seems to be we will talk when we talk and here and there…me, i think i want something more consistant…and more content.  i can tell you hold back. i don’t know if that’s because if you don’t then you end up feeling obligated to me…i’m sorry if that is why. Please make no mistake, i cherish what we have now but during the times we don’t talk i miss you. i also get hurt.  i think although i would like to say we are friends you will always be more then a friend to me. i’m sorry, that’s just me.  Anyways, because of our 2 different definitions and my feelings for you…i think for now we should let our friendship stand still in time. and maybe in a few months or years, whatever the case may be, when our paths cross again or when i might cross your mind. maybe then i can give you the friendship you are looking for.

this decision has not been an easy one for me. i struggle because i want you still in my life…but at the same time when we don’t talk i wonder if you are dating or if you’ve met someone.  if you have i would want to know but i know deep down you will never tell me.  and that frustrates me.  i know you may do this because you are protecting my feelings but i would rather know, hurt in that moment and maybe then i would be able to let you go in my heart! and be happy for you. you deserve that…i wish i could have done that. 

you deserve to be out there, meet different women, get a taste of whats out there…i just don’t want to wonder if that’s what you’re doing…cause the wonder if what drives me nuts and hurts my feelings.

Anyways, i hope you understand and i hope you won’t take this the wrong way.  please remember this isn’t “i want you out of my life forever” it’s more like “let’s freeze in time the friendship we have and resume it down the road.”  is this ok with you?