i’m glad you called yesterday.  i feel better that we’ve talked.  at least now i know how you view our friendship.  we were both definitely on two different paths. i did see what you were trying to do but at the same time i was questioning it.  i’m the type of person that likes to be told; not made to see or get the hints.  the hint thing makes me question my sanity.  i have to say though, i still don’t understand what happened…it seemed like you were fine with how our friendship was going.  something happened and i never asked the question. it’s ok, i guess i don’t really need to know.  you want what you want and it’s fine.  but i have to say i can’t help but feel that some people influenced your decision to make things this way.  and that’s the only thing i have a problem with…because i remember you told me before that you didn’t see anything changing except the physical part of our relationship. and now it’s not just the physical part that’s changed it’s the emotional part too.  that has been hard to accept but i have no choice now.

but to my surprise, after yesterday i’m better.  you made it clear and i guess i just needed time away to make things clear for me as well.  i still have lots of love for you and yes i wish things were different but they are what they are and there’s no changing it.

i want you to find the happiness you deserve and all the success life has to offer.  you will definitely make some lucky girl happy.

and i truly do hope that we can remain great friends. i really don’t want to lose that….but time and you will tell.