i think today it’s clear to me that i’m not the one…but why is it that i still want you.  i know for me the best thing is to walk away from you…but for some reason i can’t walk out…i need you to end it.  i tried giving you that the other day but you didn’t do it…or may be you did but you didn’t let me know about it. lol

you invited 3 girls out tonight…and you are the one that has told me guys and girls can’t be friends…someone always wants something more…so if you’re the one asking for more…then i’m taking it that you’re the one that wants more.  and that is killing my heart right now!

honestly though, it would be so much easier for me if you would just let me go…if you want other girls than just cut me loose…you can’t or don’t want to give me what i’m looking for.  and that’s ok but tell me that, i will let you go. and most of all i can respect you for it.

i want you to be happy and if that will make you happy so be it!  by saying that in no means means i don’t love or want you in my life, i truly do but i also deserve to be loved completely and i don’t think you are willing to do that.  i think it’s too much for you!

i’m so faithful to you…but i don’t know if i can say that about you…and the thought that you could have brought her back to our room bothers me as well. you tell me that it hasn’t happened but inside i know it has…just too many coincidences and unexplained things.

i should have walked earlier when i found that condom but i wanted to believe so bad that it wasn’t you….i want to be with you!

you really haven’t said you wanted to see me…and that makes me feel as though you have gotten your sex…you can never go more that 3-4 days…i can’t type any more…it hurts too much!!