it’s weird no matter what i tell you these days i feel as though it tears us a part…i just told you something today about my past that is so very deep for me and it seems to have made you more distant from me…it hurts to feel as though you don’t believe me…and to hear you tell me that you are still open…that totally crushed me…but at the same time i’m glad you are honest…i can respect that.  of course, it’s not what i want to hear but it’s the truth i can’t change how you feel…i wish i did or could but you are who you are and you feel what you want….all i want is a hug from you right now and i don’t think i’m going to get that. i actually feel like you are working your way away from me!

i don’t know…all i know is i feel like shit and numb!!

all i want right now is to feel your arms around me! ugh!!